35 F Brooklyn NY Filmmaker/Teacher
I've never had a longterm relationship. Some might call me a femcel, although I've been with men (not many). I'm tallish for a woman, I've never been thin , but I'm not what people would consider ugly. I'm trying to finish up a phd in the next year so I can pivot from filmmaking into academia. I've always struggled with self esteem, shyness and being a loner, but I yearn for a real relationship with someone who I can have a deep connection with. I don't want to use an app again, the situations I get into from there are uncomfortable and short lived. I don't know how it's possible to approach anyone in real life anymore either, and as a woman I don't feel comfortable making a move on men. I love films, filmmaking, stand up comedy, photography, dance, burlesque, classic rock/folk/blues music, and swimming. I love trying new things and exploring/wandering. I've done significant travels solo, and I would love to finally start traveling with a partner and lover. I don't care about getting engaged but I do want to have a child while I can. I'm a serious person and unserious at the same time, men have told me I'm strange but fun. I'm tired of being on my own. I am independent but life in this world alone is an intolerable concept for me. I'm ready to be serious with someone.