HELP! I shit my pants in front of my crush
I(32M) shit my pants infront of my crush (20F) im a loser who hasnt done much, and still live with my parents. But recently my parents forced me to get a "real" job. Suffice it to say I clean up pretty good when I put in the effort. Anyway, first day BAM! GORGEOUS woman (we'll call her emily) on my team. We immediately hit it off, talking about anime, video games, metal(NOT sleep token thank god). Over the next 3 months we get close. Going out places to see movies, and sometimes sneaking her into bars. So one night we're talking and shes saying how she wants try dating again, her last bf was abusive and not good at all. I decided this was my time to ask her. I asked her on a date and her response broke me "im sorry anon but you're too old. Besides, I dont want to date a coworker." My response? I shit my pants. Right then and there. Not just a little pebble, but a giant fucking log. Immediately she yells "EW ANON, WHAT THE FUCK." Suffice it to say we haven't talked and its been a month. I also got fired from that job. My parents threatened to kick me out of the house. Ive just been furiously masturbating to hentai. But I feel like I should go back and tell her how much she means to me... and how much I love her. Shes one of the few people I felt comfortable around. So anyway yeah what do yall think?