u/fruitsmoothiie

I'm 18, in a relationship, and honestly in all of my past relationships i've failed to quit watching porn. I just lie and hold these double-standards (not wanting my partner to consume that content) yet I'm so hypocritical and gross. Im pansexual and mainly watch female creators/wlw content. I'm dating a man though and when I've been with a dude they accuse me of liking other women. I honestly am monogamous and have never cheated/acted on desire, yet this has been eating at me and It feels impossible to stop. Even during sex It's hard for me to finish and most of the time I don't. I've had this addiction for about 6 years, almost every day. What can I do? is there any other girls with similar experience?