u/fartfacewon

Hello all,

I want to preface this by saying that I am not trying to keng. I’ve been holding all of this in with no one to talk to and I really, really think I need an exemption.

Recently, I caught my father trying to do something funny by messaging those sus massage places… there was even one time he came back home super late and was quite reluctant to tell us where he went until we pushed for it until he told us he went for a massage. I did not tell my mom about the messages.

I have Complex PTSD, BPD, Depression, and Anxiety. However, I believe all these were wrapped in “adjustment disorder”

Most of my symptoms come from my father who has so much prejudice against mental health he doesn’t even know he himself is depressed and is always pessimistic with low self-esteem. Heck, even our most recent family visit with relatives he was almost bragging and proud about how he used to scold and beat my brother and I when we were kids to discipline us. I’m really upset about that still.

I still have scars on my back after he made me kneel in front of buddha and beat me with a cane when I was younger after just a tiny conflict about me talking too much in class in pri sch.

This does not just affect my ns life, it also affects my civilian life. I need therapy and want out of this toxic place.

Don’t get me wrong, my father is extremely dutiful and has his strengths. But when it comes to passing down unhelpful mental disorders, random tamper tantrums, zero self awareness, and constant low self esteem, he takes the cake.

I know of a way to simulate brain tumour and off myself. That is last resort. I’ve already seen PCC, but my follow up is three months away. I also have upcoming IMH follow ups. I’m just extremely triggered and overwhelmed right now because my family has been fighting a lot recently, I’ve a lot of pressure on myself to do well and succeed in ns and life, and also about how my father’s sus behaviour.

What do I do

Hi all,

Am an agency owner specializing in Adwords for about 3.5 years now. Have served many clients since inception.
However, my mom fell extremely ill until the point i almost lost her last year and it took a pretty big toll on my mental health. Clients slowly started leaving me as I felt myself lacking the motivation to serve them properly.

I'm in a better space now, but to be frank I'm at a loss on how to get back to where I was. Cold email did exceptionally well for us back then, but the problem was with getting the leads in the first place.

I have two ways to get leads to cold email:

1. google maps + linkedin manual (most time consuming, but highest ROI)
2. apollo (least time consuming, but ROl is a gamble as some of the industries in the leads list aren't suitable for doing adwords)

I've tried hiring people from freelance sites to do this tedious task before but I lack the training capacity to get quality results at affordable prices. I also don't think there's a need to get a full-timer to do just this.

Any tips and advice for someone trying to get back up on their feet? Specifically with client acquisition and retention.
One of the biggest fears I had back then was churn. But now, I let clients choose whether they want to be locked-in for a discount.

Many thanks in advance!

Hi all,

Am an agency owner specializing in Adwords for about 3.5 years now. Have served many clients since inception.
However, my mom fell extremely ill until the point i almost lost her last year and it took a pretty big toll on my mental health. Clients slowly started leaving me as I felt myself lacking the motivation to serve them properly.

I'm in a better space now, but to be frank I'm at a loss on how to get back to where I was. Cold email did exceptionally well for us back then, but the problem was with getting the leads in the first place.

I have two ways to get leads to cold email:

1. google maps + linkedin manual (most time consuming, but highest ROI)
2. apollo (least time consuming, but ROl is a gamble as some of the industries in the leads list aren't suitable for doing adwords)

I've tried hiring people from freelance sites to do this tedious task before but I lack the training capacity to get quality results at affordable prices. I also don't think there's a need to get a full-timer to do just this.

Any tips and advice for someone trying to get back up on their feet? Specifically with client acquisition and retention.
One of the biggest fears I had back then was churn. But now, I let clients choose whether they want to be locked-in for a discount.

Many thanks in advance!