u/fallowneptune

like? anyone else have this issue where it makes u feel helpful and safe and in control of the situation so regardless of whether or not you /actually/ would like to you just push for it to feel that instant gratification?? i feel crazy and out of touch with this one ngl. my last two longterm sexual partners havent been able to keep up with me. after i was sexually assaulted twice i honestly think something broke in me. like i cant feel gratification or usefulness in a relationship without sex. it makes me feel like im useful and helpful and regardless of how much physical pain im in i’ll take whatever because i think im not good enough w out it. someone else say they relate i feel insane lol