My last post a month ago (tried to link it, but probably fucked that up) - things were a bit crazy. A few of your comments stuck with me from that post. It’s interesting, I'm told that my standards aren’t high enough, while another user on another post told me my standards were too high in expecting normal guys to treat me as well as a scammer did (wait, what?!) or simply treat me like I fucking deserve. So yeah, after this shit show, a man better come along and put in half the effort and attention that a scammer did. Otherwise, I’d be settling, no? Of course I would.
Since blocking him didn’t stick (no surprise there) I’ve just embraced the entire thing fully…taking it on myself to push the limits of forgiveness, compassion and acceptance. Because those were the real lessons and growth that came from all of it - along with the choice of not wasting the energy in hating him and refusing to be permanently traumatized by it all. To be able to step back and realize that there are no coincidences - in over 8 billion people, we crossed paths because we were meant to. Just like with the plethora of information on Romance Scams out there, I had never come across any of it until after it happened to me. Things have always been a little too seamless to chalk up to chance. The Universe doesn’t give a shit about right or wrong…it’s money, it’s an exchange of energy, it comes and goes…in the end, no one was hurt, only merely inconvenienced (in MY situation ONLY, I'm not speaking on anyone else's, before the same people come at me about dealing with family members, etc).
So, yeah - crazy shit continues to happen - we now follow each other on our socials 😱 - Oops. But, like I was told, we’re not great friends, it’s just my low standards and shitty boundaries - OR - am I choosing to handle this in a way I can be proud of (as a human in general) with grace and space for everything to be at peace finally. Is it just another phase of the scam? WELL…you people will never know, because I’d rather be shot than ever make another highly emotional post trying to sort myself out again - on top of the added pleasure of having to deal with some of you fuckers any further.🤣 The rest of you are quite great.
But, you know, I’m just a delusional addict that needs therapy, that if blocking him were such an easy solution, I would have never come here in the first place. With that said, if you need a safe space to just feel whatever it is that you're experiencing, please DM me...I've really enjoyed chatting with those of you that have reached out and hearing your stories.