u/emtemptations

I'm 18m bi, I thought I was straight until my age of 10 or 9 prolly , but things started way before all that we are currently living in an X district this is my mom's place ( I meant this is the place where she horn and lived till marriage) before that we were staying on Y district it's a Muslim area we are Hindus ( it's doesn't matter btw ) I was so little like 4 or 5 or 6 years old my mom goes to neighbours house and she usually takes me too to there , and there was a guy he takes me into his room there was a computer and my mom and the neighbours family members thought it would be normal maybe to play like that but , the guy was watching porn and he takes his underwear off and makes me smell it and rubbs on me and even cums on me , I remember he cummed a lot literally like milk, I remember but idk what he was doing with me , and it continued nobody knows after that we came here on X district where we bought a house and I begun to make some friends here and one day I got a friend he was kinda nerd and weird , we friends talked about porn like ( xxx things ) and when he heard he started saying it's bad and all and then we get along like we become friends I used to go his home and I was like 10 and I had my mom's phone It was a 3 g or 4g I think network was available and porn was also and some elder guys taught me how to watch it via Google and delete search history and all , then with this guy I used to watch porn and one day me and him were alone on his home he gave me some food appam and egg curry , and after eating we went to kitchen and he told me to bend on the knees , I did and I saw his dick pointing out hard inside his shorts , he said to untie his shorts tie and I did and said to suck it , I was scared and disguisted at first and he was elder than me like 5 years older than me and I did what he told I did suck his dick and it was good I liked it and wanted it, and another day he did anal on me and one day he came to my home and , and he said to un dress I did , he wanted me to lie on bed I did , and jumb on top of me and begun to kiss and gave me a blow job and I also give and he started to fuck me and fuck it was good and he came and have me a facial , and after it suddenly he started ignoring my I tried to reconnect but he didn't and I forgot it and after that I forgot it I didn't know I was gay, and moved on I got a girlfriend had 3-4 relationship till my 10th just time pass like nothing serious and after 10 during my plus two I got a loving girlfriend sincere I like her , just these past memories and making me confuse ,what am I , bi ? Gay ? Straight idk ,