Should I talk to my therapist about what she said?
Kind of upset because I lost my progress when the app refreshed, and I had to retype this entire post, but oh well. I kept the title purposely vague to avoid any reactive comments by people. Anyway, for some context, I’ve been experiencing irritability and low mood for two years now. Before you jump down my throat, I know you can have those things without having a clinical disorder —there’s other symptoms as well I have, I just don’t feel the need to mention here because it’s irrelevant. As a result of this, I’ve been talking to my therapist about possibly a depression diagnosis/depression in general. I also talked to her about starting medication for ADHD as it was affecting my quality of life greatly (yes, I am formally diagnosed with it), which is the reason I was originally referred to the psychiatrist I’ll mention in the next paragraph. Now that I’ve explained that, let me get into my story.
Okay, so a few weeks ago I was talking to my therapist, and the session was about to wrap up. Since I had talked to her earlier about the referral to the psychiatrist to discuss medication for ADHD, we were on that topic. She told me that on top of talking to her about my ADHD, I should also talk to her about my suspicions of depression, and she told me, quote, that if I were to start any medication like antipsychotics, the psychiatrist would probably have to put something down in my medical records.
So, I was caught off guard by this, because as far I knew, antipsychotics were used to treat things like bipolar disorder, which I definitely didn’t believe I had. If I was going to be put on any medication for depression, I had assumed it would be SSRIs or something. I didn’t mention this to her at the time, but after getting back home later, I did some research (mainly Googling tbh) and I found out that antipsychotics were typically used to treat depression with psychotic symptoms. Of course, though, that begged the question of if she thought I showed symptoms of psychosis, and if she does do so, why? I’ve been thinking about this for the past few weeks, but I’m still not sure what about me I could have told her that would give off the impression that I would need antipsychotics. The only thing I’m coming up with is the schizophrenia I suspect my mother has (she hasn’t been diagnosed because she won’t seek help, but her behavior seems to align pretty closely with the symptoms so I’m not sure), but even then, I don’t think I’ve shown signs of inheriting any of those symptoms myself, so I’m still not sure what it is she sees in me that would make her suggest that.
In conclusion, my question is: should I bring this topic up with her in our meetings? Or should I leave it be? If I could get some advice on this matter, I’d be really grateful.