I’m trying and dtill failing
I genuinely don’t think I can keep the job I just got. Not bc I don’t want to work but bc being homeless with literally no money makes keeping a job feel impossible sometimes. I can’t afford transportation food or clean clothes. Having absolutely no money before your first paycheck is brutal when you’re living on the streets. I finally got hired and now I’m sitting here realizing I probably won’t even be able to make it to work next week. Every organization that might help is only open during my shift hours so by the time I get off they’re closed. It feels like the system is designed for you to fail unless you already have support. I’m not soft begging and I absolutely do not want money from people here. Most of y’all probably need it more than me anyway. I just honestly don’t know what to do. The stress is eating me alive bc I wanted this job so badly and now it feels pointless trying to hold onto it when I already know what’s coming. I might go tomorrow bc I still have the means to get there bit after that I honestly don’t know. Part of me is wondering if I should even bother showing up tomorrow at all.
How do you cope when something you really wanted just doesn’t work out no matter how hard you try?