Anyone had a kinda triggered panic attack getting tangled in bed sheets (kinda TW: death, family, sry)
i have bad sleep problems. i always knew i tossed and turned a bit. but it's usually whatever. i sleep in a queen bed and leave my computer on the otherside to charge my phone because i don't have any outlets that reach my phone. i wokeup to myself completely tangled up and launched my computer across the room, it almost felt light its edge cut my leg.
i ask because a few hours ago i was at the grocery and i was behind a mom with her two kids, one of whom was clearly severely autistic. totally non-verbal, in a wheelchair controlled by mom, helmet, padded gloves. the kid knocked something off the little attached bench, which i picked up.
i've never had many interactions of any amount with people of that level of disability. but 30 minutes earlier when i was parking at the grocery, i was on the phone and learned my uncle is basically on death's door. his son, my cousin, is equally if not more severely autistic. he's now ~40, totally non verbal, but a huge guy NFL linebacker size. the only other comparison i have. so we had to put him into a full time care home because my aunt just couldn't calm him down during outbreaks and had been hurt multiple times, had to call EMS and cops a few times.
he's already missed multiple family weddings and now his dad's very likely soon funeral and i haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I've tried to ignore it but i just wish we could be with him.