I hate it. My brain feels so fragmented. My chemicals or hormones have changed. I was getting 2-3 hrs/night and it's got up to 5-6hrs. Still can't just crash. Even if it somehow gets fixed, I think a lot of damage was done. The worst right now for me is feeling like all this negativity is living inside me instead of getting processed overnight like it should.
I've been resistant to start counseling because I don't want it to feel like work. But I'm wondering if there is a type of therapy that can feel supportive?
I'll preface by saying I have done all sorts of therapy in the past - CBT, DBT, somatic, psychodrama, IFS. And I think it worked for what it needed to do at the time.
But honestly I just need more support in my day to day life. Someone to get lunch with or go to the store. A funny group chat. That one friend that wants me to join them for a social events. Someone to talk about a movie with. And just the little shares that someone knows what's going on in my life. And also that I know what's generally going on in theirs.
I don't want to keep working out traumas. I just want to hangout and feel like myself again.