feeling like there's no hope :/
been picking for as long as I can remember, also have severe eczema. they go hand in hand in making my life harder.
I feel like I'm getting more obsessive. Every little imperfection, every scab I can feel, normal skin even. I do it when I'm bored, when I'm stressed, I do it so often I don't even realize.
I've bled all over everything. At my bfs family's house. In public. On the couch. Even with his (bfs) constant support and corrections, it feels like it hasn't been helping. It's deeply personal and so hard to accept any help. I've had severe infections, scarring everywhere, body-horroresque moments dating all the way back to the ages of four or five. Frequently feel childish and stubborn for resisting help when I do it over and over.
Recently saw a dermatologist, who had hope they could relieve the worst of my eczema, but I fear I won't ever be able to control myself skin picking wise. any words of kindness are very appreciated .