Dating Feels Hopeless (F22)
Not sure if this is the right place for this sort of thing. I’ve been in and out of relationships with men and women for the past few years. For relationships with other women it feels they are so entrenched in hetero dynamics that it is replicated in our relationship which is something I do not desire (having a ‘man’ in our dynamic.) with men it never feels they respect nor think about women with any sense of clarity.
I have met many self depicted ‘awakened men’ and have found myself disappointed every time. It feels like the self appointed feminist men think about gender equality in the ways it directly benefits them, rather than thinking how it has both impacted the ways they think and how these structures are still baked into our social sphere and their own biases as a whole.
I know I am only 22 and relationships are not the whole point for life. I have a life I am proud of, I have a budding career, friends I love, hobbies I actively engage in.
I am not lonely, but in many ways I am. I feel alone in the way I scrutinize the behaviours of men, I cannot tell if I’m asking for too much, or am too critical of those I am looking to share my bed with.
Any advice or personal stories would be incredible, thank you.