i can't express how comfused and frustrated i am
I'm going to try to explain this as best I can, so please bear with me even if you may not understand
I'm struggling with my faith, I thought about becoming Pagan and ultimately I've decided I don't want it... I'm thinking of athiesm but then again it just doesn't feel good (and yes, this is partially about how I feel, some of my reasoning comes from my feelings). I want to be Christian as I have been all my life but with how much I overthink my faith, questioning it constantly it's hard to believe. It's just so hard being told that my "choice" (bisexuality) is a "lifestyle" and no matter how much I can prove to those kinds of people it's infact, NOT a lifestyle... the won't listen and it just feels like I'm going in circles and bashing my head against a brickwall over and over and over and over and I just want it to stop so I can actually be comfortable as a Christian.
I just HATE how these people hate me with the feeble guise of "I'm praying for you," "I hope you find God," and XYZ, PLEASE. JUST. STOP. THESE PEOPLE TALK TO ME LIKE I'M STUPID. I CAN SEE THAT YOU HATE ME, YES I UNDERSTAND THAT, STOP SUGARCOATING AND MAYBE JUST CALL ME A FAGGOT OR SOMETHING.
Anyways, please just help me. That's all I ask.
God bless you all.