I got an interview through cable
I didn’t ask for this to start off with. My uncle kept forcing me to give him my resume and it took him 5+ months for me to finally relent. I know he has some insane connections and truthfully, I didn’t want to use it. Kononnya mok dapat dengan usaha kedirik la tek. And I know it works. His daughter for her studies and I know he was involved with the PPD so my mom could transfer to a different school faster.
Regardless, I got the email for the interview and it’s for a lecturer position that has me scared shitless. I guess it’s from my educational background but anyway, it doesn’t help that I’m officially diagnosed with anxiety (currently taking meds but hey my body still reacts to ‘danger’).
I don’t know what I’m freaking out about. Is it the position? (context: I hate teaching, I avoid becoming a teacher but ig lecturer is a different story), or is it because it’s going against my morals? Or do I just have low self esteem for this position and I keep degrading myself for something I never tried or ever considered.
I got a job offer at a private company but my parents and relatives are pushing me to go for the cable thing because well… it’s under State. Honestly, I’m just rambling. Fear, scared ugh anxious brain iykyk