u/celixpena09

Hi all, update from my last post, the Methotrexate one dose journey is on its way and I’m feeling a sense of relief that it is working and saw a 22% decrease on day 7. Here is my trends so far:

Day 1: 1489.15

Day 3: 1607.47 (had an ER visit for nausea that wouldn’t stop could have been a side effect from the methotrexate)

Day 4: 1784.89 (this is when I started feeling concerned that it wasn’t working but my doctor reassured me that it is typical to see an increase on day 4, I know they’re tired of me I’ve been calling basically almost every single day out of anxiety 😔)

Day 7: 1397.05 (22% drop)

I’m glad it’s working as expected but still feeling so many different emotions, a sense of relief, grief, numbness, depression, anxiety all mixed together and was wondering does it ever get easier? I feel comfort posting here and knowing I’m not the only one going through this as it can feel isolating at times, sending love and prayers to everyone

Found out my pregnancy is ectopic last Saturday and they gave me the mtx injection, but I’m so scared, when I went for day 4 blood draw my levels went up again, I keep going to the ER and they keep sending me home because I’m not in any pain and my scans show no free fluid but I feel scared for my life, I’m scared I’ll do the day 7 blood draw and the levels will go up again, the doctor said at that point the options would be getting the injection again or having surgery, I’ve never had surgery before I don’t want to die, I feel like my life is on pause and there’s no escape from this