u/catapultedout

I had tried a post before and don’t think I explained clearly so adding more context.

I just feel so stuck and dissatisfied with my life currently and the main trigger is my work.

I started my own business it’s similar to a mobile version of vet nursing. I thought I would love it as it would give me freedom over decisions but I feel I’m on the verge of burning out.

I don’t understand how I work so much and then am not be able to live. For my industry I don’t even earn badly it hovers around £34-36k, which ever so slightly above average if I was hired by a company.

However I can’t live of it in the city I am in. I love the actual sessions I have with people and their pets. But the travel and admin is killing me but that’s also an essential part of the job.

The admin involves reports, liaising with vets, insurance companies, emails, invoices etc

Plus also making sure I stay up to date on new research and cpd.

Ideally I would like to add social media but I don’t have time currently.

I have to live with my parents as I can’t afford to live alone. Who while I get on with them to a superficial degree. it’s not pleasant as an adult.

I feel so unmotivated in life currently and I’ve let myself go. I don’t eat well I don’t exercise because I’m exhausted at the end of the day. I feel I’m constantly catching up on admin, reports, emails, invoices etc.

Or I spend all my time feeling guilty I’m not doing work as there is always something else I could do. I find it so frustrating and don’t understand how I can have a full time job and not even afford a 1 bed flat.

I desperately need my own space and my parents place isn’t big so there no where for me to be alone and ever decompress, I also feel this dulls my productivity.

I’m 35 and feel like I’m living a teenagers life.

I’ve just lost all motivation to do anything as I think what’s the point. I can’t even afford a basic life.

I don’t know how to change it, Granted the city I am in is very expensive but if I move I loose my work as I have built it up in the city I live in. I hated working for commercial vet practices as you get paid horribly for such long hours and have no respect or say over decisions.

I feel I should change professions or how I work but that means no money and then I’m never getting out to live my own life as I am heavily trying to save right now.

Essentially I think if I had my own space to live and only had to work and do about 70% of what I’m going now I would feel better.

I also don’t think I can afford to hire an admin assistant yet and don’t know what could help.

I feel my life is passing me by and it’s making me sad I’m not where I thought I would be.

I should add I set up the bussiness two years ago and to some degree I am proud of how quickly it built it. But something needs to change as I’m now just overwhelmed all the time and never seem to be on top anything.

In terms of pricing I am on the upper end of average but I am more qualified than the average person who does it as such.

I now have a steady stream of new clients coming in but even when I have a packed in week I will end up with cancellations I can’t fill in time and they give me enough notice or I feel guilty charging. So I never earn as much I expect each week.

Thanks for reading!