terminated from my job 🔥
Hi everybody,
I got diagnosed with BPD last year after a psychotic break and being forced to stay in a mental hospital for a time. I was told I am also bipolar but I couldn’t pay for my medication or any therapy so there wasn’t really any followup on any of that after I basically got kicked out of the psych ward for having no insurance plan. Anyways… I just got fired on the spot because I’ve been rather abrasive and rude to my boss. She mistreats me and my coworkers (a fact that is affirmed by ALL of my coworkers, fyi), and I don‘t like her. They listed other reasons to fire me but honestly I didn’t care about their other criticism because I sincerely don’t think I was underperforming in any way other than interpersonal things (and my coworkers say similar things-- my performance was up to standard but they knew I was beefing with my boss). I know the company has been having financial issues so I honestly think they just picked their least favorite employee (which, of course, was me) and terminated them on the spot.
That context isn’t really all that important, honestly. You’re probably wondering why a post about me getting fired is labeled as a ”success story.” Well, that‘s because when they brought me to the office to tell me they were terminating me, I managed to keep my cool the whole time. I offered a few critiques on their management skills but otherwise I took it with grace, said bye to my coworkers, and walked out. This was like a perfect moment for me to split and I just didnt do it, even though I was really ready to. I felt like I wanted to tear my hair out and bash my head against the wall. I did do a bit of this when I got home… but in the moment, I didn’t. That‘s at least a little victory, right?
Another part of the victory is that a lot of my (now ex) coworkers texted me afterwards to tell me that they enjoyed working with me and that apparently the company has a history of blatant favoritism. I was even invited to hang out with a few of them who are thinking about quitting now. I felt kind of vindicated but I tried to view the situation objectively, so I didn’t really talk about it until a while after it happened. I kind of don’t know what to do with myself since I’ve never been terminated from a job before. I honestly didnt value this job much anyway… I’m only upset I have to find a new one. I feel like I need a plan before I start to get more upset about it.
Anyway… TLDR: I didnt freak out on anyone when I really could have and Im a little surprised with myself.