Non contact with my mom
Sorry if this post is irrelevant or triggering. I will try to keep it short and to the point.
Since I can remember my mom has been dependent on substances. Definitely went through times where it was well hidden but it’s always been in the background. But the past 10 years have really been the toughest. I’ve lost count of the ODs, and I don’t really even know how to be there for her anymore. I’ve tried everything from getting mad, getting family involved, trying to maintain whatever relationship I can with her and now for the most part abstaining from seeing her completely. I feel like such a bad son and frankly I just miss her so much. But every time I go back I see just how bad everything is. No matter what I say or do it’s the same cycle and I feel like no matter what I can’t bring her back. The closest thing I’ve felt to hope is the last few times she went to jail and I got to see her when she got out, there’s light in her eyes conversations feel good and she wants to get out but I can’t be there 24/7 to stop her from using. I know I can’t force her and she has to want to get better. Am I wrong for just stepping back and hoping she chooses to seek help?