u/bluefumbles

buckle up guys, this might be long bc there’s a lot to the story. me and my sp dated for almost two years in 2020 to 2022. i was his first love and although he wasn’t mine, he’s definitely The Person i’ve loved the most. he broke up with me, we didn’t have big issues in our relationship really, he wasn’t in a good place mentally and didn’t think being in a relationship was good for him, whatever. about 8 months after our breakup, he reaches out to me, we meet up and i find out he’s still in love with me. at that point, i had moved on so our reconciliation was short lived as you can imagine

anyways we stop talking again, and we both get into relationships for about two years. at this point, i don’t think we’re ever going to talk again and i guess i had accepted it. a few months before the end of my new relationship, i started having frequent dreams about my sp and thinking about him a lot. it was so weird but i think this was me subconsciously manifesting him back into my life

i was unhappy in my relationship and kept thinking about how i had to break up with her. right before our breakup (around the end of october 2025), we had a really bad argument and it kind of reinforced how badly i needed out. on halloween, sp texts me for the first time in 2 years apologizing for how things ended and how he thinks about our relationship a lot bc it was an important moment in his life. although i refused to accept it, him reaching out to me really pushed me to make the decision to end my relationship and i did so the next day. me and sp meet up for coffee a few days later and catch up, i found out him and his ex had broken up a couple weeks beforehand. after meeting up with him was when i started consciously manifesting him

from then until recently, our relationship has been platonic. we hung out a handful of times and would text occasionally and call even less frequently. he also told me he didn’t see us getting back together even tho we had a good relationship (obviously he has no say in this lmao). i kept persisting with my manifestations even tho it felt bleak and it felt like there was no movement happening. a few weeks ago was especially hard, he kept rescheduling our hangout and when he suggested a phone call to make it up and catch up, he tells me he’s been seeing a girl and it’s been going well etc

i spiralled for a bit that night but locked tf back in the next morning. and guess what, he tells me a week later that she ended things (sorry not sorry). anyways we finally hangout last weekend to go bar hopping. the first few hours are very innocent and friendly (at least i thought so), we end up dancing on each other, making out and having sex……. twice at night while drunk af and again in the morning while sober

we don’t really talk about it except saying we shouldn’t use each other for sex. after he leaves, we go back to just casually texting and sending reels. this past weekend was a friends birthday. i texted sp just to see how he was doing and i let him know my plans for the night. i honestly had no intentions of us hanging out. he asks if i need a ride… mind you he lives 30 mins away from me and the place i was going was about 20 mins from me in the opposite direction. he insists on driving me still and picks me and some friends up. thankfully, it was a really big group of people going and my friend didn’t mind him tagging along. we all drive to our destination and when we got out of the car he immediately holds my hand, fingers interlaced and all. we spend the night dancing and making out and ofc we go back to mine and well….. you know. he also didn’t mind all the PDA in front of my friends he met years ago and new friends he’s not met

the next morning felt a little more intimate than the weekend before, he lay on me and told me to hold him. we were kissing, and he even kissed my forehead when he left (last time i only got a hug).

i think it’s nice to see movement even tho im not done manifesting yet, but i feel like it’s going in a good direction. patience is key fr, i started subconsciously manifesting him in march 2025, he reached out to me in october 2025 and nothing intimate happened until april 2026. ill be back for an update when he tells me he loves me and wants me back🫡