u/blinkin_

Not really sure how to start this. Like the title says, I have had a very inconsistent and on average very low sex drive for a few years now, and it's kinda bumming me out. Spring is here, which is a period where I historically got very horny, but I just... Don't anymore. I remember a few years back just seeing for the first time that year a hot guy in a tank top on the street and getting so turned on just from that. I miss seeing my partner and feeling incredibly attracted to him. I miss having sexual fantasies randomly popping into my noggin and turning me on like crazy. I miss getting random crushes or seeing a hot dude and thinking about it for the rest of the day. I miss all the tiny little things that made my sexuality feel rich and special.

I can feel the questions coming, so a bit more info about me: I'm 27, in good shape and healthy. I did mention this to my doctor, and the bloodwork ruled out low testosterone, diabetes and the likes. I don't see a therapist, don't have the money for it atm. Frankly I don't know what to do about it. My partner has been incredibly understanding, but I know it bothers him as well, which makes sense. It just feels like a part of my life that I really enjoyed is gone without so much as an explanation or any indication that it will be back at the some point. It just kinda sucks.