u/bigsussybakaballs69

I see no problems with it, I wouldn't want a bunch of people hovering over me in my last vulnerable moment. Fuck off all of ya.

Okay in all seriousness I understand it's not so literal and is about being cherished, cared for, loved. Things that humans supposedly crave and define as indicators of having lived a good life, from a biological level even. And I've had that, it was alright, but I'd also rather not, y'know?

I get it, really, for most people. But personally it would feel much more peaceful to have myself as my last companion. It would feel the safest and happiest. It's not even that I distrust people, I'd just feel more freedom alone in that moment (plus I wouldn't want to make anyone sad). Zero obligations, zero requirement to perform or be seen in any way. Something like that.

Do you get assumptions on it too?

Mine is pretty neutral and has been that way my entire life. Flat affect is common after all.

I was often accused of looking sad growing up when I was just neutral or thinking. I never frowned or anything though. Where I'm from smiles are a common cultural thing and their absence alone is often seen as inherently negative, so that makes sense? I also had an upbringing that disallowed facial expressions, but that's another thing.

The accusation annoyed me because I'd just get accused of being sad and then they'd get weirdly angry at me for it. I wasn't but that would've been a little invalidating to someone actually sad, I imagine.