u/big_cupcake420

I have this memory etched into my brain from my senior year in high school—it was pouring rain as me and this girl sat in the car listening to music. I put on “I talk to the wind” on a whim thinking it suited the moment and she made this remark, “I know this is going to be a core memory.”

idk it was such a fleeting relationship (as it goes in high school) but my first real intimate moment with a girl which meant a lot to my insecure teenage self who didn’t see anything desirable within him, who desperately struggled to find connection with others. to hear someone connect with my taste in music like that just made me feel understood. i dunno, adolescence is such a weird phase

now I’m inebriated listening to music I used to love, reminiscing on memories that really aren’t as sentimental as they feel to my intoxicated self right now

king crimson is criminally underrated though in the mainstream. I have somewhat generic tastes but mannn

I’m in a bit of a bind and only have access to gas station/grocery store alcohol which prohibits any actual liquor

4lokos make me wanna puke just thinking about them, but I’m wondering if buzz balls are perhaps slightly better? I need a quick buzz and attempting to stomach enough beer to get me towards the desired level would be a disgusting endeavor.

gas station alcohol is just so gross it’s almost not worth the effort

Been a super weird timeline compared to other opioid WD I’ve been thru. Very gradual increase in symptoms until today I woke up feeling the full force of pure emotional disorientation.

I’ve always been somewhat atypical in that i experience far more emotional symptoms in withdrawal compared to physical ones. It’s usually an agonizing, hair-ripping anxiety that hits me hardest where I just can’t sit still for more than a couple minutes all day.

Anyway just wanted to share so i feel less alone rn