u/bend_it_bend_it

I found a nice bimmer.

1998, 728, 200k km, 2nd hand, BMW original phone, looking really good.

Problem: for the past 4 years, it has not been used a lot (not because of a mechanical problem) and no service has been made during that time.

The seller claims he did an overhaul of the cooling system.

I'm a bit scared of the fact that it hasn't had any service for the last 4 years.

Car looking good, the driver's leather seat is a bit torn and needs to be fixed.

Seller claims no accidents.

12k euro

What is your opinion?

I hate my life.

For many years, I was in the closet, you might say. I always loved wearing women's clothes.

Four years ago, I made a huge change: I left my country and moved to Europe.

Because of thaf i decide to let myself be a bit free, I began wearing women's clothes at home, I threw away all my men's underwear and used only women's.

For the last year, I have gone through laser hair removal, i began to like my body a bit more when it was smooth and feminine (in my eyes).

And yet... I am still bad.

I am a lonely person, depressed and have had anxiety for the last 30 years.

I don't have friends, I only have virtual friends, but they can't talk with me because they have their own lives.

If I weren't such a weak person, I would end it, but I can't because I'm a huge fat failure and loser.

I beat myself, humiliate myself so much, so badly.

Now its public holiday, long weekend and if there is one thing I hate is weekend.

I HATE.weekends.

No work stay at home not leaving because got no reason to.

Lots of suicidal thoughts that will never be fulfilled.

I am just lying in my bed, waiting for natural death to come and take me.

Every morning that I wake up, it's a bad morning.

I don't want to wake up, I want peace and quiet.

To stop crying, to stop those voices in my head.

I hate when people tell me go to therapy, it wont help, it wont work.

Nothing and nobody can help but the endless sleep.