u/batmanpjpants

My life is incredibly stressful and I feel like I am letting everyone down. Sometimes I feel like everyone would thrive without me and I find myself daydreaming about running away and starting a new life so the people I left behind can flourish. But instead of doing that, I’ll live vicariously through a character.

So suggest me a book where someone runs away and starts over with a new life. Fiction preferred. Doesn’t have to have a happy ending. I don’t have a particular genre preference.

I am 37F and have smoked daily for over a decade, with switching from flower to cartridges in the last 2 years. I have tried edibles a handful of times but they have always made my stomach hurt.

I used to smoke for a variety of reasons- to ease my anxiety, agoraphobia, and claustrophobia. I also suspect I am neurodivergent and have always felt like weed has “normalized” me.

For the past year my “I’m going to die of lung cancer” compulsive thoughts have gotten so overwhelming and so bad that the only thing I could think to do was quit smoking. I am not a person with a lot of self control so I knew I needed to do it cold turkey because attempts to “cut back” in the past have not worked.

I know it’s early days but I am on Day 5 of no THC and I am not seeing any benefits. I am not sleeping any better. I am not dreaming again. I am short tempered. My anxiety feels worse. I almost had a panic attack in my car from claustrophobia. In fact the only thing that’s gotten better is my compulsive thoughts surrounding “I’m going to die of lung cancer” have gotten a little less loud. But that’s it.

I don’t know what I am looking for. Maybe just support? Maybe someone that’s been through it to tell me that it’ll get better in a couple more days.

I used to smoke cigarettes but quit 8 years. I STILL to this day crave and miss smoking them like it was yesterday. I am scared that it’s going to be the same thing with THC.

I’m going to stay strong but I guess I’m just feeling down right now.