pictures as a cover to some bunch of crap
Hello good moning, I deleted my typing just now so hopefully someone who saw me before here won't focus on one type, because honestly I am confused in wtv if people perceive me the same as me or just nod to nod when I reveal my typing coz for starters I had not very common enneagram for my type and my friends called me out on that when I had told them that from the book we were reading (surrounded by idiots I guess) that I could be the red one being half serious and 4 of them told me absolutely fcking not.
Please tell me if you're basing of 16p or cognitive functions, I don't mind being typed by both by you, could be for funnies too.
no, even if it looks like it I don't want life advices, let's focus just typing and only typing.
my daily life looks like this: I am home schooled, I don't really have a routine besides basic stuff, I go on k1 trainings, muay thai like 3-4 times a week but I could be struggling with a burn out for now, why? I could be too soft for this and it's the sparrings, it could be light, I can communicate, I fear no communication between people if it's necessary to avoid unnecessary discomfort for me or the others around, I've been doing this for a year and half now but the more I do that the more I feel pressure and one week ago it was the first time I faked that I have no mouth guard to spar, and I am telling you this because that would fight with my Se dom that I was pretty sure of.
I thought of chaning the environment and doing idfk bouldering or dancing, but I wouldn't do it because I would be dwelling on that I could be SOMETHING by doing what I've been doing, I like changes it's cool by me but not regressing my work bro even though it was only a mere year and a half but I wanted to reach at least half of my potential because I was already changing my hobbies, sports like socks and I finally woke up at age 14 that I needed to be doing something for my future not temporary fun things and it hit me like a truck when I first started to feel dread after them.
The same thing for what do I want to choose to do with my life, and ig it's something normal for my age so whatever for that, coming back to my daily life, people say they admire me for studying on my own because I have like a few weeks for single exam and I grind on my own, noone asks me if I am studying or not, I have no platform for that just internet to find sources and sometimes I look into textbooks but not much, I watch movies while studying because I have pretty skilled multitasking, I have also pretty good grades, physics is my fav
since I left traditional school because of my classmates that I was too bum for I am taking naps, catching up with friends like twice a month, lifting weights home only, living my chud life and eating and watching some science podcasts and funny people ego lifting to stress out, it's not over though remember my words.
I also have sum group therapy sessions my mom signed me up for without my acceptance, that I would go for anyway because I love social situations, even like that. I got fond on those weirdos quickly, we have trips and I am the one to decide on most things also giving others a word in this of course, coming up to them, encouraging and taking them out of their comfort zone of shyness, it's working.
Summing up I think that I either care for my image too much, overthink too much then be too fast paced the other day that I have 4 potential types that I could be.