First Mothers Day- Trigger Warning
Needless to say I almost ended inpatient, we don’t have anyone to keep our 3 month old and my partner goes back to work tomorrow. PPD is kicking my ass and we are trying (therapist, psychiatrist and I) are trying to avoid psychosis… I am a recovering self-harmed. I convinced him to let me get a blade today for safe keeping, it’s in our safe, I don’t have a key and it’s only for if I get to the point where I can’t handle it anymore… I told him if it gets any worse I’m gonna end up dead due to my own doing. This shit is hard and my body has recovered but my brain literally is losing its shit. I am safe at this point in time. I just know there might come a time where I might not be.