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So after a couple of red flags came up with my therapist, which I raised and they denied because "they don't remember saying that" I feel so much better for ending it.

I had a gut feeling this therapist was cold and analytical, a blank slate and it was recreating the trauma I had with my caregivers from childhood who were cold and emotionless.

I got codependent on my therapist. we have all been programmed to see ourselves as damaged and our therapists as gods.

Please see this as a sign to cut ties if you feel uncomfortable and any concerns aren't taken seriously. I kept going back to therapy but feel freer now knowing the therapy system is effed up and I'm NOT going back. Have faith in yourselves y'all. Community is where it's at.

Think about it, we only started having this conventional talking therapy modality of healing since the 1940s? What did humans do before then for healing trauma and MH issues? Community support, shamans, healers your community knew and trusted?

So I was lurking on this sub and contemplating stopping EMDR therapy after 14 sessions.

Just ended it as the therapist said he doesn't recall saying what he said. Like at the end of my last EMDR session after the processing is done we had a short debrief as usual. I was still overwhelmed from processing traumatic memories. I felt mainly numb in the processing.

After the debrief, a few tears were coming from my eyes as the traumatic memories were coming up still. My therapist said "if you’re not feeling numb now what are you feeling?" And it felt in the moment like a gut punch, like a gotcha from him. Clearlh underneath the numbness was suppressed emotions like sadness. He has a cold, analytical manner. I said in an annoyed voice "obviously sad, I'm crying." I was annoyed but overwhelmed and the session had ended so I left.

Then when I brought up what he said and how I felt he said he doesn't recall that. He said the debrief after processing in EMDR is not meant to be analysing but meant to be him bringing up "themes."

He did apologise and said it's important the impact anything he said had on me but he very much said he didn’t remember saying this.

Why do therapist's never take accountability. I told him I'd like him to self reflect and take accountability. He said he can't take accountability for something he didn’t say and there are different ways of interpreting words?!!

Honestly therapists are so defensive and are always protecting themselves. He didn’t even check in on how I was feeling or my safety, I had mentioned feeling suicidal before. I was the one who raised if I could see another therapist after ending it with him, he would have just left it and if I did end my life he would never care.