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If you're reading this, please help me! I am a 28 year old guy.

I don't know from where to start. But I definitely feel I am just at the edge of my patience and out of my tolerance level. I love my family so much and I don't have the courage to tell them how much of a looser I am.

My father has spent ₹ 6 Lakhs for my BTech but unfortunately I wasn't able to get a job, then I studied more for the competitive exams and finally started doing MBA and then again my father spent 11 lakhs and now I am still here unemployed. I really feel like a looser being unemployed for so many years. My father is so kind and such a good person, but all I did to him was given him sadness, pain and expectations that never met. Those hard earned money he spent on me, I lost it all. Failing 15 interviews on a roll feels like something is wrong with me. Today morning I felt this immense pain in my head when I started thinking what to do if this keeps going, soon tears welled up, started asking God- is this some kind of test he is taking cuz if it is; please end this cuz I am at the verge of loosing myself, my patience level is really low and then those thoughts also come that I should just end up my life but then the thought of my family arises and also I am not that strong to take such a big decision. Loosing hair like anything, sleeping way more than 7-8 hrs, staying inside my room all day. I don't know why god is doing this to me. Please please please help me! Anyone.

If you're reading this, please help me! I am a 28 year old guy.

I don't know from where to start. But I definitely feel I am just at the edge of my patience and out of my tolerance level. I love my family so much and I don't have the courage to tell them how much of a looser I am.

My father has spent ₹ 6 Lakhs for my BTech but unfortunately I wasn't able to get a job, then I studied more for the competitive exams and finally started doing MBA and then again my father spent 11 lakhs and now I am still here unemployed. I really feel like a looser being unemployed for so many years. My father is so kind and such a good person, but all I did to him was given him sadness, pain and expectations that never met. Those hard earned money he spent on me, I lost it all. Failing 15 interviews on a roll feels like something is wrong with me. Today morning I felt this immense pain in my head when I started thinking what to do if this keeps going, soon tears welled up, started asking God- is this some kind of test he is taking cuz if it is; please end this cuz I am at the verge of loosing myself, my patience level is really low and then those thoughts also come that I should just end up my life but then the thought of my family arises and also I am not that strong to take such a big decision. Loosing hair like anything, sleeping way more than 7-8 hrs, staying inside my room all day. I don't know why god is doing this to me. Please please please help me! Anyone.

If you're reading this, please help me! I am a 28 year old guy.

I don't know from where to start. But I definitely feel I am just at the edge of my patience and out of my tolerance level. I love my family so much and I don't have the courage to tell them how much of a looser I am.

My father has spent ₹ 6 Lakhs for my BTech but unfortunately I wasn't able to get a job, then I studied more for the competitive exams and finally started doing MBA and then again my father spent 11 lakhs and now I am still here unemployed. I really feel like a looser being unemployed for so many years. My father is so kind and such a good person, but all I did to him was given him sadness, pain and expectations that never met. Those hard earned money he spent on me, I lost it all. Failing 15 interviews on a roll feels like something is wrong with me. Today morning I felt this immense pain in my head when I started thinking what to do if this keeps going, soon tears welled up, started asking God- is this some kind of test he is taking cuz if it is; please end this cuz I am at the verge of loosing myself, my patience level is really low and then those thoughts also come that I should just end up my life but then the thought of my family arises and also I am not that strong to take such a big decision. Loosing hair like anything, sleeping way more than 7-8 hrs, staying inside my room all day. I don't know why god is doing this to me. Please please please help me! Anyone.

If you're reading this, please help me! I am a 28 year old guy.

I don't know from where to start. But I definitely feel I am just at the edge of my patience and out of my tolerance level. I love my family so much and I don't have the courage to tell them how much of a looser I am.

My father has spent ₹ 6 Lakhs for my BTech but unfortunately I wasn't able to get a job, then I studied more for the competitive exams and finally started doing MBA and then again my father spent 11 lakhs and now I am still here unemployed. I really feel like a looser being unemployed for so many years. My father is so kind and such a good person, but all I did to him was given him sadness, pain and expectations that never met. Those hard earned money he spent on me, I lost it all. Failing 15 interviews on a roll feels like something is wrong with me. Today morning I felt this immense pain in my head when I started thinking what to do if this keeps going, soon tears welled up, started asking God- is this some kind of test he is taking cuz if it is; please end this cuz I am at the verge of loosing myself, my patience level is really low and then those thoughts also come that I should just end up my life but then the thought of my family arises and also I am not that strong to take such a big decision. Loosing hair like anything, sleeping way more than 7-8 hrs, staying inside my room all day. I don't know why god is doing this to me. Please please please help me! Anyone.

If you're reading this, please help me! I am a 28 year old guy.

I don't know from where to start. But I definitely feel I am just at the edge of my patience and out of my tolerance level. I love my family so much and I don't have the courage to tell them how much of a looser I am.

My father has spent ₹ 6 Lakhs for my BTech but unfortunately I wasn't able to get a job, then I studied more for the competitive exams and finally started doing MBA and then again my father spent 11 lakhs and now I am still here unemployed. I really feel like a looser being unemployed for so many years. My father is so kind and such a good person, but all I did to him was given him sadness, pain and expectations that never met. Those hard earned money he spent on me, I lost it all. Failing 15 interviews on a roll feels like something is wrong with me. Today morning I felt this immense pain in my head when I started thinking what to do if this keeps going, soon tears welled up, started asking God- is this some kind of test he is taking cuz if it is; please end this cuz I am at the verge of loosing myself, my patience level is really low and then those thoughts also come that I should just end up my life but then the thought of my family arises and also I am not that strong to take such a big decision. Loosing hair like anything, sleeping way more than 7-8 hrs, staying inside my room all day. I don't know why god is doing this to me. Please please please help me! Anyone.