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The Solitary Watch 🌑

The garden is quiet tonight.

Jasmine lean in the moonlight,

their scent clinging to the air.

The fountain speaks in a tired voice,

its water falling slow,

as if it remembers brighter days

and aches for them.

The moon keeps me company,

soft and pale,

watching from her place above.

Her light spills over the empty steps

where laughter once lived,

where flowers once turned their faces to the sun.

No one comes.

Only the wind moves,

slipping through the yew trees,

telling me stories I already know—

of promises that faded,

of hands that let go.

So I stay here,

while the world sleeps,

a shadow waiting for morning,

though I’m not sure I want it to come.

~Darshan

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u/_chill_guy — 9 days ago

After half a decade of relationship she found out that we aren't compatible. My everything was her. My family is fucked up so she was my only support. I used to do everything for her - feed her , do her assignments whenever possible, pick and drop her . But recently I could feel the distance grow. I knew something was off , I had to beg her for the love , I had to beg her for the attention, I had to beg her to call me . It went on for months and then she finally decided that she won't stay with me anymore.

Everything is now blank in front of me. It isn't that I'm a chapri lover or sorta person but I made her my everything. I linked my every joy with her's. Even if I had 50/- in my wallet 40/- was meant for her. I basically led my life so that I could provide her. It was never me , all I did was for her. Try to build a career so that she can stay happy, learnt cooking so that she won't have any problem, learnt how to do household chores . Changed my personality so that she's comfortable, developed speaking skills so that she feels less embarrassed of me , went to the gym so that I look good beside her. (Yet I didn't put any effort according to my special person)

I have some exams in front of me. I have my college to attend. I just can't do anything anymore, barely get out of bed , tried doing wrong stuff to myself but somewhere my own guts stopped me. I barely have an appetite, I can't walk I feel I'll just crumble into pieces, my hands don't wanna move anymore , I feel my body sinking into the bed , there's some pain in my chest and in my head and it feels like it will rip apart , I can barely hold my pen . Now I fear just a glance of females from my peripheral vision , I just look down n walk , I fear speaking to one , I wasn't like this ,I don't know what's so wrong with me.

There are many more problems - family, career, etc but those I can handle , in this case I just go blank. I never expected this to happen . I felt we'll stay till our last breath.

How do I cope up ? How do I have a fresh start ? How do I console myself ki it wasn't me who should be guilty? I do have motivating thoughts but my mind won't listen to me. Any help ??

u/_chill_guy — 14 days ago