u/Zestyclose-Idea-1731

Hi everyone! I'm very new to the community and to RCAs... but I already find it all so interesting! Especially the mysterious and creepy aestheticed avatars...I simply love them!!

So, I decided to draw one myself. I drew this on my mobile, so it’s not perfect. I also rushed a bit toward the end & didn't draw any detailed background 'cause I was feeling tired. It’s such a shame I didn’t know sooner that artists could create their own avatars, before the thing ended... feels like a major missed opportunity! 🥲

Apps used: Infinite Painter & Adobe Express (for the backdrop in image 1)

PS: If you know of any way I can still convert my art into functioning avatars, pls lemme know! 🙏🏻

I wanted to write down my experience 'cause I’m feeling so happy today. It may seem normal to you but I’m new to this sub and not used to such generous & helpful gestures so I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed.

Just yesterday, I shared a post here writing my very "noob" and silly queries. Since then, the amount of non judgmetnal help thst I’ve received is overwhelming.

I want to specially thank skollywag92 & amey33 for their avatar gifts and guiding me through every step of the way during the setup. I’m really grateful and I honestly do hope that I come across more people like you irl. so blessed and happy 🤞🏻✨🙃

PS: I had zero Cool Avatars even yesterday but now see, I have TWO!!! Can you believe it?? 😭😭🙏🏻♥️

Hi everyone! My account is 5yo but I’ve never been much active on Reddit until the last 2mos. I’m pretty confused about how avatars work. could someone explain them to me or link me to any apt post(s)?

I’ve been reading about the "Vault" and getting starter packs for new accounts but none of that has happened to me and I don’t see a Vault option anywhere.

Also, what’s the deal with the blue hexagon & backdrop around some people's avatars? Is that a Premium feature?

I’d love to get a unique or custom avatar but Google says I have to buy an NFT. Am I misinterpreting that? I can’t afford to spend money on reddit rn but is there any way to earn one by drawing or participating in any community event?

I'd appreciate any help!

Made me miss my sis 🥲🥹

Pata hai aaj kya hua? I decided to open up to strangers on the internet! 😮

Aap logo se kuchh baat krna hai, par pta nhi kya hi bolun aur kaha se start karu. Tbh, I'm getting anxious just trying to start writing this, but I really want to tell my side to some real humans and not Gemini/ChatGPT.

I promise I'll try to make it as short as possible.

I'm a guy currently in his mid-20s (24 will be 25 this year). For all of my late teen & early 20s, I've been at home. I don't have any friends or any connections at all. I logged into this 5yo reddit acc 2mo back, just to try to connect to the real world because I feel I've drifted light years away from normal functioning & the ways of society.

I tried to talk to guys here but as my luck would have it, I didn't come across a single man who wants to spend his time chatting with anyone other than a girl. We all know girls ignore strangers on the internet (not blaming them). But woh sab chhoro... I will try to say what I have to say in short... kyuki really bahut akela hu yaar.

It's been 3-3.5 years since I last saw a friend in person. I had big dreams once and I'm not bluffing, but I was an above-average student (kya hi milega fake karke yaha). In my teens, I started earning through art commissions (quite proud of this) because... I don't know, since childhood, my upbringing made me feel like I'm a liability.

Even if I wanted a ₹5 packet of chips, I felt I had to afford it myself. I could never ask my parents for even the basic requirements. But you know, I don't even blame them... maybe they were just doing what they knew best.

My ma had gone through so much with her father and then with her in-laws (our house) too, that she used to cry and trauma dump on me from the tender age of four. I'm not blaming her, but this routine broke something in me.

And baba... what can I say? He only cares for his mother and brother (though he doesn't accept this, his actions speak louder). When I started having noticeable vision issues in 10th grade, even then he didn't bother to take me to a doctor. My ma took me to a clinic for a minimal visit (which she paid for with her own savings).

So you can pretty much understand the level of malnourishment and deficiencies I have, which went unrecognized and the state of my family dynamics. I had a lot of trouble at home growing up, but I don't have the heart to talk about it anymore.

When I was in school, I used to tell jokes and draw cartoons because I realized early on I could make friends through that... I was always craving validation from friends. But by the end of 10th, my bad mental health was starting to show and it worsened with my studies in mid-11th. I know my writing is going very patchy, but I'm writing thoughts as they come to mind (lately, I'm struggling to structure them linearly).

Trust me when I say this: I've always tried to be the best friend I could be, the best partner in all of my relationships, but when I needed someone, no one was around. I've only truly loved one girl in my life, but she also left when I was at my lowest. Again, I'm not blaming anyone, but I kinda hate myself for not being able to tackle my mental health, my family situation and everything else. When I was earning years ago, I started taking health supplements, giving myself gifts... ahh whatever.

Lately, I'm coming to terms with the fact that my "best" was never enough. Year after year of long, lonely days confined to my room made me realize a lot abt myself. Like, I've been running from myself since I was a kid. Maybe I have ADHD and I'm neurodivergent... it would explain my procrastination and my inability to move a finger even when my life is now hanging by a thread.

Itna likhke now I realise, there was so much more I wanted to say, but I couldn't write it properly. Maybe I wrote it all too vaguely or incoherently, didn't I? Sorry.

Btw, I plan to leave Reddit soon. the propaganda, news, cheating stories, toxicity, and rudeness are killing me and triggering me a lot. Also, I'm wasting too much time here trying to karma farm (farmed 100k in the last 25 days... now you understand my obsession).

Maybe I'll post this to 1/2 subs, but I don't know why I wanted to say my side to real humans. I don't want to victimize myself and don't want any sympathy either. But maybe this is just me trying in desperation. I really don't want to fail in life, man.

Lately, I'm forgetting things quickly. I find myself occasionally speaking out loud, like I'm constantly quarreling in my head with people who I thought did me wrong. My libido has also decreased noticeably since late Jan. My sleep is now heavily infected with dreams.

At times, I feel I'm struggling to gasp for a single breath of air and my heart rate spikes. Pagal ho rha hu kya bhai? I had so much I wanted to do in life. bahut darr lg rha hai dosto.

End tak padhe kya aap?? Sach me bhai, dil se thank you.

PS: Ik there are a lot of errors & breaks in the flow of the writing. Sorry about that.

Been listening to 'Phir Se Naina Bhare' on loop, so thought I'd just put the image as the cover here. Really love the song ❤️

I can almost hear the puppies giggling and saying, 'Me next! My turn now!' 😭♥️

Things like this make you believe more in destiny 🫰🏻💕✨

This performance changed everything. Huge credit to Tyrone Keogh for bringing Dalton to life in the One Piece. In the anime, Dalton felt like a side character..but here, you can actually feel his pain, responsibility, and struggle. Every scene hits differently. He didn't just play Dalton, he made people believe in him.