should i apologize to my “talking stage” for being too clingy, or is that only going to make things worse?
i’m 17f, he’s 18m; please be easy on me, i’m aware this is a juvenile issue
for context, i had been talking to this guy online for a few months last school year, and it ended due to a misunderstanding. there’s no bad blood, and we’ve been talking again for the past few days. we’ve been discussing meeting up this summer and seeing where it goes from there.
however, despite heavy enthusiasm the first day, he takes more than 24 hours to answer me (regardless of what i send; he also cuts conversations short sometimes) while spending like the entire day on instagram, so i was worried that he might not be interested. but i wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt, because he was truly eager the first day.
side note: maybe it’s just been normalized to me to text like all day or at least throughout the day with talking stages?? that’s how it’s always been in the past for me. but apparently that’s not normal, which i wish i had been informed of a few hours ago!
anyway, this led me to be persuaded into texting him about my “concerns” earlier, shall we call them (as shown in the photos)… and i’m now realizing that i sound obsessive and clingy and insane!! which is very upsetting, because i really like this guy. (and ironically, as you can see, he left me on delivered after that.)
now i’m wondering if i should apologize tomorrow (or whenever he answers), or if that would make it worse?? i feel like i just keep digging a deeper and deeper hole for myself and i need HELP
if i do apologize i was just going to say something like “sorry for coming off so strongly [yesterday/the other day] btw 😭” “i feel bad, you can just text me whenever” AFTER he texts me first (yes i plan these things meticulously in advance)
is that weird too?? should i just leave it alone? did i already mess this up? i absolutely CRINGE every time i read the latter half of messages that i sent him