u/Zealousideal-Ad6981

This subreddit has let me vent so much and you guys made me feel less alone for the 1 year and a half that I’ve been at this place that is practically hell. I went to an interview today at an airport store which is a huge airport. I make $26 an hour at my current call center job, I will make $22 an hour at the airport gig but I will make more at the airport job because my current company is in NY and they take a shit load out on taxes. I am in Florida so we don’t have state taxes here. My aunt who works at the airport gig literally makes more than what I make at the call center and there will be a raise on October for everyone to pretty much $23. It’s full time. Great benefits, pretty much the same ones I have now. The schedule at the beginning is not ideal but eventually I can move to 5 AM to 1:45 PM which is the perfect schedule for me. I went to the interview today and they gave me the job on the spot. Here’s the problem though, they want me to start on Monday. Which will not allow me to give my two weeks and although this job has destroyed me mentally, I wouldn’t like to leave on the wrong foot, I could technically work until Friday but I honestly don’t want to, I mentally can’t do this anymore (I’m bipolar and this job has caused back to back episodes due to immense stress). Any advice? I just feel bad because although I am on probation again due to being switched to different dept and I have new supervisors and managers, but still I feel guilt to just leave and not sure what to say.

I do want to say, that anyone stuck in this call center hell, there’s a way out. I’ve been applying for MONTHS, I lost hope more times than I can count. Shit I even became suicidal at many points. KEEP APPLYING, try to not lose hope and I wish all of you who wish to get out, find a job that gives you mental peace.

Hey everyone, I am 23 years old. I got diagnosed bipolar 1 with psychotic features and anxiety, when I was around 20. I often wonder if I am truly bipolar. I try to educate myself the best I can regarding the condition, it’s fascinating to me at times. Yet, sometimes I wonder if I am bipolar or if it’s something else. Sometimes I read or hear about other people’s experiences and I just don’t relate. For example, I’ve never been hospitalized ever. I’ve never attempted against my life, even when I’ve had many thoughts about it. I stop taking my meds more often than I would like to admit to people around me because I’m ashamed of not doing my part, and yes I do experience depression and hypomanic episodes, but I heard someone say that bipolar people cannot afford to be off meds because that means they’ll be hospitalized. That has never happened to me. I don’t constantly feel the highs, but I do feel the lows pretty often.

The first time I knew something was wrong was at 17 when I was convinced there were cameras watching my every move inside of my own home. Then at 19 I completely lost my shit for months, that was the first time I had a full blown manic episode, I messed up everything in my life, I wasn’t diagnosed yet and I didn’t know what to do or what was happening to me. Then at 21, I had what I believe was some sort of psychotic episode that lasted for about 2 months and I was convinced I had ALS for some reason, I wasn’t myself, I would barely sleep and it just made things so much worse. Oh and at 20 I got an obsession with religion for some reason. Other than that, I haven’t had any other mania episodes. I just get depressed for months, then a bit hypomanic then back to depression. Sometimes I know I am bipolar and that is a hard pill to swallow, other times I think I was misdiagnosed. I take my meds then stop and it’s an endless cycle. Is this normal? Maybe my bipolar is not as severe? Is there levels to this shit? I just wish I understood myself better. I would love to hear other people’s experiences.

Hey everyone, I am 23 years old. I got diagnosed bipolar 1 with psychotic features and anxiety, when I was around 20. I often wonder if I am truly bipolar. I try to educate myself the best I can regarding the condition, it’s fascinating to me at times. Yet, sometimes I wonder if I am bipolar or if it’s something else. Sometimes I read or hear about other people’s experiences and I just don’t relate. For example, I’ve never been hospitalized ever. I’ve never attempted against my life, even when I’ve had many thoughts about it. I stop taking my meds more often than I would like to admit to people around me because I’m ashamed of not doing my part, and yes I do experience depression and hypomanic episodes, but I heard someone say that bipolar people cannot afford to be off meds because that means they’ll be hospitalized. That has never happened to me. I don’t constantly feel the highs, but I do feel the lows pretty often.

The first time I knew something was wrong was at 17 when I was convinced there were cameras watching my every move inside of my own home. Then at 19 I completely lost my shit for months, that was the first time I had a full blown manic episode, I messed up everything in my life, I wasn’t diagnosed yet and I didn’t know what to do or what was happening to me. Then at 21, I had what I believe was some sort of psychotic episode that lasted for about 2 months and I was convinced I had ALS for some reason, I wasn’t myself, I would barely sleep and it just made things so much worse. Oh and at 20 I got an obsession with religion for some reason. Other than that, I haven’t had any other mania episodes. I just get depressed for months, then a bit hypomanic then back to depression. Sometimes I know I am bipolar and that is a hard pill to swallow, other times I think I was misdiagnosed. I take my meds then stop and it’s an endless cycle. Is this normal? Maybe my bipolar is not as severe? Is there levels to this shit? I just wish I understood myself better. I would love to hear other people’s experiences.

My two last jobs have been in call centers. In my last job, I was there for 10 months until I lost my mind, quite literally, all the stress led to psychosis since I am bipolar. In my current job I’ve been here for 1 year and a half. I’ve only lasted this long because I have more bills to pay and cannot afford to stop working. I’ve had many depressive and manic episodes back to back due to all the stress. It has seriously affected me so much. All I can do is keep increasing my medication. Recently about 3 weeks ago they moved me to a new dept which is one of the most difficult depts in the company. The people are much ruder, the workflow is much more complicated and I hate every single part of it. It’s crazy to me how they moved me to this dept right after I got FMLA. Now here FMLA isn’t even enough to tolerate everything I have to deal with. I’m mentally exhausted. It doesn’t help that the job market is absolute shit. My aunt is trying to get me into her job which is retail at an airport but she says it’s super chill, full time, good benefits and good pay. Unfortunately right now there’s no opening however. I’m just hoping I’m able to get out of here soon. I’m scared that all this stress will send me into psychosis again. Last time it lasted like 2 months and it was an awful experience.