I don’t think I can stop picking.
Hi, I will not tell my age, but I am in middle school and I struggle with picking the skin on my arms, face, and hairline. My arms are the worst and I can’t wear tank tops anymore because people are disgusted by them. I also have eczema and I have keratosis pilaris on my arms which is the main trigger. I find myself constantly pausing to check my arms and find something to pick, and every time I go to my bathroom I scan my face and pick even though I barely have any acne. All my mother does is snap her fingers at me when she sees me picking and tells me to stop. She tells me that I will have scars and says she will take me to the doctor or a therapist if I don’t stop. Everyone else in my family either ignores it or tells me to stop and that it grosses people out. Every time someone tells me to just stop it makes me want to pick more out of spite. I know it’s terrible and my arms look terrible but I just can’t stop and I don’t know how. I have adhd but my mother doesn’t want me to go on medication. I likely am on the spectrum and I probably have contamination ocd. It’s a struggle and if I don’t stop now it will get worse.