u/XXmoreso83

Chronic relapser since attempting for the first time back in January. For the most part I’d only dose once in a 24 hour period. Each relapse the dose would go up. I think my first attempt at quitting my dosage was 60-80. Recently I was dosing like 250-300 mg at a time. Last 7 dose was Wednesday and my last sub dose was 1 mg just over 24 hours ago. I’m out of town on vacation so I’m hoping I’m in the clear. Going to try not taking anymore Suboxone bc of the obvious. This will definitely be my last quit as the cat is out of the bag with my husband. What a shitty feeling 🤦🏻‍♀️ Anyhoo, that’s my tiny progress report.

I have been back and forth with trying to quit since the beginning of January. I’ve not had much success because I keep doing ultra rapid sub tapers (3 days) and then end up doing more 7. I’ve come to the conclusion that for me, myself and I, I need more of solid quit. Like ima need two weeks at least just to get a reset. I’ve never experienced PAWS of any type. Never have with any opiate kick. I’ve made another WebMD appointment to get more subs and to actually take them as long as I feel I need to. I deserve to have my life back. If taking subs gives me that, then IT IS WHAT IT EFFING IS. I’m ok with it. I cannot continue with this cycle of tapering and relapse. It’s exhausting and I’m already tired from just my normal day to day. Why am I running myself into the ground? Can’t make that make sense. I’m pretty sure I’ll do the subs for a month and then recalibrate from there. I’ll be sure to rinse the film out and brush my teeth a little extra lol. I’m hoping with a solid month of no 7, that will be motivation to taper the subs from there while addressing my issues that made me pick up to begin with. Thanks for listening 👂🏼 🙏🏻☺️