u/WildLight998

I feel so alone I’m at my limit, I’ve begged my team for more support but they’re so overstretched they’ve not been able to offer me anything until the 28th May. I can’t do this anymore. Everything is ready and my notes are all written.

Today has been incredibly hard, I’ve spent most of the day sobbing but I feel calm now. I’ll either call 111 option 2 to beg for help one last time or I’ll call them to tell them where to find my body, we’ll see

Update: the guy I spoke to was nice and has reminded me that there’s still help available between now and starting treatment. I still really want to go out and do it but I think tonight I’ll be able to stay safe inside.
Thank you to all the lovely people who’ve messaged me

Update 2: I’ve managed to get ready for bed and am going to try sleep soon. The main thing that’s calmed me down is deciding I’ll do it tomorrow, but I’ll see how things go

Hi I’m just wondering what else I should be doing to build my experience for when I apply to the DClin. Any advice would be greatly appreciated :)

I’m currently in 3rd year doing a psychology integrated masters so have 1 year left. I’m at UOY with the goal of applying to the Hull DClin straight after my 4th year. I’m also on the clinical pathway doing the required clinical modules.

I’ve got about 1 year of experience working as a bank HCA in a forensic mental health hospital. I’ve applied for a few research internships for this summer to hopefully gain more experience in the research side of things.

Is there anything else I should be doing?

What would help me with gaining more experience and so I can hopefully get onto the DClin when I apply next year?

TW: SI, I’m not in immediate danger!! no details mentioned

I’ve lost all hope and have made a plan for a few days time. I don’t know whether to ask for help one last time or just accept my fate.

For context: I was recently told my team have decided that in a few weeks I’ll do 4 skills sessions with my key worker, so between now and then I’ve not got any appointments scheduled with anyone. Then after the 4 sessions I’ll hopefully start a wellbeing intervention for managing emotions. I’ve also been put on a potential waitlist for DBT in 2027.

I know it’s good there’s a plan but tbh i feel more hopeless. I sobbed down the phone and said that I feel like I can’t wait a month or two before getting some kind of treatment, and asked if there was any way I could have even just an appointment a week to check in until then. This call destroyed any hope I had left and I don’t think I can do this anymore.

I know exactly what I’ll do, what I’ll use and where, and have got my notes written already. This plan is something I’ve had in my mind for a month or two and my team know of it, but today I’ve decided that I think I’ll go through with it on Tuesday.

A month ago I had an assessment for a voluntary admission but it was decided not to do that. I also had contact with crisis/home treatment team for a few days. I’m just so tired of begging for help and trying to stay for others.

I don’t know whether to reach out to my team as a last ditch try for help but it also feels pointless. If I chicken out on the day then it’ll seem like I was just threatening them to try get attention or more care and I don’t want to be ‘the boy who cried wolf’. But I’m also like, maybe one last try? I don’t know what to do.

Potential TW: brief mention of SI and SH, not in immediate danger

I’m currently under a CMHT and recently been increased to 200mg sertraline. I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts for around 2 months now. A few weeks ago my key worker and psychiatrist felt I should be assessed for a voluntary admission and I didn’t end up being admitted, but things haven’t really improved since then.

This is the current plan moving forward (from my key worker’s summary email):
Short term: Around 4 sessions focusing on current thoughts/feelings. I have a phone call next week to confirm start dates, and will be given some “home practice” before sessions start.
Mid term: Waitlist for a Psychological Wellbeing Intervention (likely Managing Emotions or Trauma Stabilisation).
Long term: DBT (likely won’t start until 2027, and I need to complete PWBI first).
During this time I encourage you to use the skills you already have. Have a think about what skills you currently use and what is helpful, how you manage your thoughts and feelings. Please contact duty responder when you are struggling with these thoughts, we are here to support you.

I understand that having a plan is a positive, but I’m really struggling with how long everything is going to take. Even the “short term” support might not start for a few weeks, and I feel like I’m just being told to manage things on my own in the meantime.

I’ve been so open with my team about how difficult things have been- I’m dealing with constant SI, have relapsed in SH after being clean for over a year, and I have spikes where I feel unsure about my ability to keep myself safe. That hasn’t changed over the past 2 months and my team know all this, so I’m confused about why support seems to have decreased (discussing voluntary admission, 1-2 appointments per week -> phone call next week, no planned face to face appointments, intervention in 1-2 months)

I feel exhausted from constantly trying to get through each day, and honestly quite hopeless about coping until support actually starts. I also feel quite let down, as I thought being open, engaged, and asking for help would lead to more immediate support rather than waiting weeks. I just feel like I’m screaming into a void. I do understand that services are stretched, but I’m struggling to align that with how unsafe things can feel at times.

I guess I’m asking:
Am I being unreasonable in feeling like this isn’t enough support right now?
Is there anything else I should be asking for or doing in the meantime?
Is this kind of plan typical in CMHT care pathways?

I’m trying to engage fully and do what I can to help myself, but it feels like it’s not enough on its own right now.
Please, if anyone has any advice about what I should do I’d really appreciate it :)