I’ve managed to stay away from T for about 2 and a half years but have continued to struggle with other things on a regular basis. I got what I thought was just K last night but quickly realized after getting into it that there was some crystal in it.
Long story short, I had a huge anxiety attack and some heart palpitations and ended up in the ER overnight—feeling a little foolish, but they did help some. I haven’t slept since and am still anxious and really angry with myself and my connect from last night. A part of me feels like I threw away all the progress I made, but I know things happen and I can move on.
I’ve been in an outpatient program for substance use for a couple weeks and felt like I was getting some support and hitting a turning point but because of recent events the program is only willing to work with me if I go to an inpatient program first.
Anyway, sorry for the long, rambling post. I’m drained and am going to try to eat and get some sleep. Just feeling defeated and wondering if anyone can relate.