Not so happy on Mother’s Day
Today is my very first Mother’s Day as a new mom and I can’t stop crying. I’m not sure if it’s because of PPD, weening off breast milk, or if I truly have a right to be upset. Maybe I’m over reacting but this was supposed to be such a good day for me. I was looking forward to being pampered and loved and appreciated by my husband today but I didn’t get that at all. Last night he decided was the perfect time to tell me that he’s overwhelmed taking care of the baby at night, even though he’s only just started doing that a few weeks ago after I begged him to help me sleep training. I’ve been doing almost all baby tasks day and night for 10 months. Baby just turned 11 months a few days ago. I understand it’s hard not getting enough sleep but god damn it’s literally Mother’s Day. I didn’t ask for anything except a day off. I woke up this morning and did every task for the baby, changed their diaper, made them breakfast, feed the dogs, gave him a bottle and just put him down for a nap. Where’s dad? After watching and seeing me cry all night and morning he felt bad and went to buy me flowers and a card. Although I appreciate the gesture I can’t help but feel like it’s a last minute low effort thing to make me shut up. How could you tell me I’m not doing enough for our child and then turn around and think flowers are gonna fix anything? He didn’t plan anything for today, didn’t get me any of the gifts I sent him or told him I wanted, didn’t even take care of the baby for me in the morning. Now I feel like a burden because I asked him to help me or do anything for me. This was supposed to be my day, I work really hard every single day taking care of our child, the house, the dogs, and I feel like it all goes unnoticed and unappreciated. Anyway, sorry for my rant. Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms working their but off today!! If you’re in the same boat as me I’m sorry but know that one day your baby will appreciate all that you do for them, even if your partner does not.