Shopping trigger
A year ago at this time, I was 6 months pregnant. We had a 10 week loss prior so we were already on edge. But, we were out shopping for our other kids and decided to get some outfits for the new baby we were expecting since we were further into the pregnancy. I was hesitant but happy to finally be getting a couple of little outfits for our new son. Then we lost him in July, right before his due date.
Anyways, yesterday we were out and about and ended up at that same type of store and I was in the "baby" section to get a gift for someone else and boy was i triggered unexpectedly. The whole memory of being there, shopping for our baby hit me. The hope we had. The little outfits we bought. The person we gave the clothes to after our son died. I was a sad small speck of dirt at that moment. But also relieved that I could feel so deeply when numbness has been my new normal.