AITA For breaking up with my boyfriend?
I(F) broke up with my ex bf a couple months ago. If anyone one would ask what happened, id tell people it ended mutually because I didn't want to talk about it. A week ago, me and my friends were out drinking, they were all sharing break up stories, I got a little emotional, and decided to tell them about my ex. First off he was a nice loving caring partner, we were together for about 2 years. But over time I just started to get annoyed at the little things. We would argue every now and then, and I told him I dont like to be in conflicts and that my parents always fought. He was overly affectionate which was ok in the beginning of the relationship, but then it started to get on my nerves. So I told him to stop doing it so much, and I could tell he was sad, but to me the honeymoon phase was over. I started to notice that he would drink alone at home after work when we didnt hang out. I could always tell because he didnt sound sober when we talked on the phone. For a couple of months we were ok, but we would still fight every so often. I was thinking about breaking and having mixed feelings, but he put so much effort into getting me the most amazing gift ever! He even planned it with all my friends. I felt bad about wanting to break up with him so I decided I would give him another chance. A week before his birthday, he randomly texted me at night asking why I couldnt say I love you anymore and demanding an answer. I told him he was drunk as a joke. He didnt think it was funny and asked if we could talk but I was too exhausted from work that I just told him to go to bed. The next couple of days, idk why but I felt off and the thoughts of breaking up with him came back up again. The night before his bday, we had his party, i was still feeling off but wanted him to enjoy it. At dinner, I arrived late, and saw he was sitting with his friends, when he asked me to sit next to him, I said its ok everybody is already seated so why switch it up? Then we all went bowling and I felt sick to my stomach. My bf kept trying to talk to me but at this point I was just annoyed and not feeling well. So we decided to end bowling early, and go home. My bf was supposed to stay with me but I felt too sick and asked if I could just sleep alone. I kissed him and wished him a happy birthday. The next day was his actual birthday, but I was still feeling unwell and asked to cancel our plans and If i could just come over and give him his gift and hangout for a couple hours. He agreed, and I gave him his gifts, afterwards he asked if we could talk, and I told him I didnt want to, and now wasnt the time. He kept persisting, and so I just told him I think we should break up. He asked why, and I told him that we were toxic together and that we fight too much, but that I still loved him. This was my first time ever breaking up with someone. I bawled my eyes out while he cried in my arms and we cuddled for awhile. When I finally had to go, he begged me to stay but I couldnt. The next couple of weeks when Id ran into him, he was such a different person, cold and distant. I know it sucks to break up with someone and that there is never a good time. My friends were all mixed opinions, but one called me a b word. Another friend then told me it makes sense why I started recently dating (exs friend) and said I was a bad person.
AITA?sorry for long post but i put in more details then what I told my friends, and I felt embarrassed after I told my friends but you have to trust your gut feelings