u/Warped_princess — reddlx

TLDR: Does fewer / less severe crashes = good? or just neutral?

**please no depressing comments saying how bad it can get, I'm so fragile right now, i'm sorry

(31F) In this period of time I have scarcely left the house, I'd say three times total for short errands (the final time resulted in PEM). I rest as hard as I possibly can.

The good people of this sub advised me to cancel my vacation, so I did that. And I am now basically turning down a higher paying job just to focus on health.

My family drops off groceries and does most of my chores, I do not work, I eat fairly good, take supplements, and sleep as much as possible. I have a generally positive disposition as a person most of the time and I do believe in the body's power to heal - said as a person whos had several health conditions and injuries.

I've been doing deep relaxation work, nervous system regulation techniques which have helped tremendously with the nervous-system related issues. Inundating myself with as many recovery stories as possible so as not to get too doom and gloom about it.

I also took a light trip on about 400mg of psilocybin, which helped my nervous system calm down in a really big way.

In this time, I've experienced two crashes that were very severe. Each sort of different in nature, but severe.

The crashes I've experienced in the last couple weeks are more... mild? Wherein I know I need to just listen to it, and rest. But I *could* technically like go and take a shower and probably be alright...

My question honestly is - where do I go from here? I am getting blood tests finally next week. I suspect low thyroid and low b12 for sure. But I know I'm in a complex situation so I want to sort of see what people have to say here.

I'm housebound by choice right now. But What should you do if you're noticing your tolerance for activity is slightly improving? Can I try a walk? Should I just not push it for several more months as precaution and just accept where I'm at?

Is avoiding crashes the best way to heal or are we going for - push a bit, then pull back if it's too much? As in, treating crashes as data rather than something to fear outright?

Thanks so much. Struggling for sure but trying to stay cool. Positivity is deeply appreciated.