I don't know who I am anymore
I grew up in a very religious household, so I never allowed myself to feel my true feelings. A few years ago, I realised that I might be a lesbian and have stuck with that thought since. Only my closest friends know and I'm not planning on telling others. I've never been in a relationship (ever), the closest I got was a failed talking stage. For a few weeks now, I'm confused about who I'm actually attracted to. I'm not sure if it's just celebrity crushes on men or if there's something with a deeper meaning behind those thoughts. I've never imaged myself ending up with a man but neither with a woman, if I'm honest. I just don't see myself with anyone at all.
Am I just experiencing unserious celebrity crushes or what's going on?