why
why, why do i always get stuck with these absolute retard degenerates, who i think or they think can 'understand each other' but they turn out to be completely, i don't fucking know, egotistical clueless assholes. i don't fucking get it! are they really that insecure? that weird? are they trying to legit fucking trauma bond me or something? when it's clear as hell that i am literally. fucking. in the middle. of many traumas, that i just feel clueless and helpless about???? and also, they have apparently all the fucking friends and support - don't fucking know how, because last i seen, they were acting delusional and even OTHER PEOPLE were like, get a load of this guy's crap - while i've literally ALWAYS been alone and like, i don't know, out of the fucking loop when it comes to basically all things social or being 'good enough' in any capacity for society???? i am fucking PISSED OFF and i don't even give a shit if i am not decent either, but get a fucking load of all this bullcrap! my. fucking. god am i just fucking doomed. who the fuck of all those degenerate retard piss ass clueless motherfuckers would EVER have entertained this bullshit, hell all of those other goddamned weird fuckers who would just go and be blatantly disrespectful to me out of nowhere, i would literally much prefer THEM than whatever retard pilled fuck ass hypocritical weird deranged bullshit that this fucking shit is. i just want to somehow be freed but god fucking knows that i'm just STILL that fucking uselessly traumatized and holding myself back somehow in my own pathetic uselessly non progressive life.