My doctor thinks I should start therapy
I was checking in with my doctor today and was just giving her a general update when I randomly burst into tears when talking about the hold lol. And like respectfully therapy will not lift this hold. I already deal with major anxiety and mild depression and she’s so concerned and at the same time I’m so tired of my husband and friends constantly having to make me feel better lol. I don’t like telling them how I’m actually doing because I don’t want to seem so needy and complain all the time like they didn’t create the list of countries. I also have a minor surgery coming up that I don’t think is a big deal but everyone around me thinks I’m downplaying it(in the grand scheme of things it feels like the smallest of deals like I still can’t work, I can’t travel, I lost the first chunk of my 20s to the pandemic and now I’m losing the last of them to this hold so this procedure does not feel like a very big deal). I’ll have a decent day and then I’ll remember the gravity of my situation and the fact that my peers are passing me while I twiddle my thumbs and lose my mind a little more and then a whole day has passed where I barely got out of bed. Tearing up a little as I write this but I won’t let the bastards get me down lol 😭💀😽