u/Upper-Force-3825

I'm kinda convinced now that if I don't get myself together then I probably will not make it...

He started talking about his some past patient's... getting blind or you know not even make it...or just loosing some parts... because of bad blood sugar which I have...

And I don't feel that scared...? But still I don't even get any support from anyone and I'm on the edge of giving up..

All this is getting too much I'm completely alone at all this...

I Know I probably need a psychiatrist or someone because I Know I'm not alright at all..

I'm suffering from depression and burn out and I can't sleep properly lately because I fell asleep tired and I wake up even more tired than I was before...

My stress Is getting worse my heart couldn't keep up with it and I couldn't take deep breaths...

So yeah I don't know what to do..

But my classmate who knows about these things... He said nowadays the gaming laptops are not good... He said if I want something that's good I need to buy a much more expensive one.

Which is better..?.can anyone tell me..?

Im thinking of buying some acrylic stands but jumpichiban is much more expensive Than aitaikuji..but im not sure which one is more reliable...

I Just turned 17 and its hard to manage it..

I have a sensor which is stressing because if I mess up my doctors assistant blames it all on me I mean my doctor Just cant see im suffering...and the constant pressure Just makes everything suffocating...

I wish I could have had a normal teenage years and life without this and burnout and depression...

School does not making it easier..its Just so hard when everyone blames it on you even thought youre a kid who needs help because he/her is drowning...

Im trying my Best to keep my blood Sugar stable but I have a weird diabetes between one and two even thought they say the labour says its type one... And im Just using more and more insulin..

And when theres only one people who says youre doing the Best you can and try to help and that but you need to try harder and She believe in you its Just makes me damn emotional because I finally did something good right..?

For all my folks out there who feels similar Just so you know youre not alone..