u/Unusual_Energy_668

I'm very angry about this stuff. One thing that immdiately comes to mind is how my sister sabotaged my grades so that I couldn't go to prom. Or so I think. It was something I always talked about. She would say something really nasty under her breath and I would get angry and say "I don't like that. Can you please not do that" and immediately after that she started frantically shouting "Mom! Mom! H needs her meds raised! She called me xyz!!!" My meds were raised so high I could barely do my schoolwork and I didn't graduate until the next year. I also didn't get to go to prom at all! Also, she was an adult. Not even in high school!

Prior to this, I had high grades and was on honor roll. A couple of years ago, she would constantly call me ugly yet copy everything about me. My hair color, my eye color, the way I parted my hair, my interests. It infuriates me because she took something that I was interested in and aspiring to do and did it before me and got all the credit for that idea. Now my mom is obsessed with that interest because my sister "found" it. It makes me feel bad, but I shouldn't even care to prove anything to this family. They don't care about me.

My sisters are so rude to me. Ever since I first got on honor roll. According to my mother they were jealous of the attention I got from my parents. Well now I'm convinced my parents hate me because they do the same things my sisters did to me WITH my sisters. Always saying awful stuff about me behind my back. Which another incident that I have a hard time letting go of is one that took place in 2023. As I walked down the house stairs I heard them loudly shouting insults at me. Calling me a loser for just about everything and then my mom chimed in with "I hate her! I can't STAND her!!! All of their bullying has traumatised me. It's hard to be around them when I have to because It makes me feel really anxious.

I just hate having to deal with all of them! It's hard to believe that what they're saying isn't true because it's my family. I've even had strangers do this to me too. I just feel so trapped in this world that doesn't want me around. Pretty much everyone hates me.

I had incidents where my parents told me to pack up my things and that I was going to a halfway house. I got banned from eating in the kitchen because I believed my family was poisoning my food. I had to eat and cook in an rv where everyone poops. I was in a really bad place mentally. (I'm bipolar. I was off meds) I'm so angry at all the things they did to me. Most of it gets denied. I get told that they didn't do those things.

My mom told me that my dad was dead because she killed him and to call the police. (He wasn't) All of these things they did to me and didn't apologise for most of them. Mom even told me that I should never get married because my husband would abuse me. "You're gonna be somebody's b\*tch in the streets!" All my parents ever do is make fun of me by comparing me to socially awkward or ugly characters and so that I can hear it!

My sisters don't get this treatment. I am so mad! I want to get revenge on them by doing some extreme things. I feel that angry!

I want to move out, but I'm on ssi and section 8 is going.

How do I let this go. I tend to REALLY care about what these people think. They don't believe in me. "She can't do xyz! She's too much of a loser!" I am so fed up with it all! I start to doubt myself because of that. Well.. them.

I feel like crap because my family genuinely hates me. Every time I have tried to hang out with them, they leave the living room and avoid me. They are always talking crap about me. My mom once said she couldn't stand me. Her and my Dad always make fun of me for everything. It makes me upset.

As for my siblings, they've always done the same thing. They were always jealous of the attention I got from my parents as my mother once told me.

Everything I say is used to mock me. I can't tell the family ANYTHING.

Well, now one of my siblings is getting married and I'm pretty sure her husband will be welcomed into the family and treated awesomely. This complete stranger, treated better than an ACTUAL member of the family and they see nothing wrong with it!

I'm sick of being different. I don't know what it is, but negative treatment from other people has always followed me since late childhood.

I went to dr.s that laughed at me for speaking and I was just a child. I did nothing to them. I don't have to utter a single word and people hate me. "I don't want to be in line behind HER!"

It is really making me fed up!

I don't think I want to even try getting a diagnosis. They say hand flapping needs to be present during childhood, but I never had that. Just aversion to spaghetti and hating having my pictures taken because of the flash.

I am just too scared to get tested for fear that I won't be diagnosed.