u/Unknownn_88

no matter what I do ill either look like a girly guy or boyish girl and I just feel exhausted by gender I guess. I don’t even know what I want I just know I hate my body and its feminine features. My mom used to force me to wear skirts and dresses but I feel so uncomfortable in them, im an adult now and the stuff I wear to work is slightly feminine (except i only wear pants) as just as an effort to fit with the other women there but i feel like an imposter i guess it just never feels like me, it feels like im trying really hard to be something im not.

i just feel wrong all the time i guess. its not like I want to be a guy but I also hate being a woman, I wish i was sexless but no matter how much society progresses that will never be the norm to most people, even the kindest people who try to understand.. i feel like if i were to say im non binary everyone would still consider me just a boyish girl and that itself bothers me. Im tired of being perceived at all for my gender.

im sorry if non of this makes sense its late and im feeling kind if out of it and just wanted to let this out somewhere