Coming to terms with detransitioning?
My body type (pear) and height (5ft3) makes stealth passing unattainable and I don't feel safe being visibly trans.
I was on HRT and was developing more negative than positive effects, so I stopped treatment. I am post top surgery and while love the results of that, feel disheartened at how extreme my lower body proportions have become since.
I am tired. I don't feel like there is a future for me and have been feeling this way for a long time. Couple that with autism, and I feel like a fail state of a human. I'm too despised as an autistic woman, and can't live safely as a man. Both recieve negative attention, public harrassment and hinder my ability to form professional and social relationships. If I do detransition, then it is the 'safer' option for me. I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. I am just too tired.