Was it really that easy for you?
I know I came on too strong. I was excited. I eyed you for a while, you know you're pretty. And it was you who approached me, remember?
I know our lives are different. I know I'm not the normal type you go after. You aren't mine either. But I guess that bothered you more than it did for me. Your image is more important to you than anything.
And yet there was that connection. It was real, and pure, and rare. All I wanted was to explore that and build on it. I bet you don't know how rare it actually is. Or maybe it was only rare for me and not you. So why tell me you felt it too?
So why? Why go cold after an amazing weekend together? Why chase another guy after holding me for hours caressing my face and staring into my soul? Why get official with him and not tell me? You said you didn't want to hurt my feelings, so why keep responding to me, stringing me along and gaslighting me, saying that your condition is the reason you can't be in a relationship? Why lie like that? Why continue hooking up with me if you didn't like me? Why apologize to me at all after i found out you had a boyfriend? Were you with him the whole time? Does he even know about us?
What are you hoping to get out of me? I mean really, what the fuck do you want from me? Am I just an easy hookup? Did you want to keep me on the backburner until he inevitably dumps you? So you can add yet another name to your list of exes that you constantly complain about? Am I on that list already?
I hate being an option. I hate that you lied. I hate that I have to pretend nothing happened. I hate how easy it was for you. I hate that I would probably take you back if you asked. I hate that I have to keep seeing you because we work nearby. I hate you, so why do I still care?