u/Top_Scientist4448

I think a lot about one day when my mom inevitably passes. Would I feel regret being nc all that time? I have really bad anxiety, it’s gotten better over the past months but I’m scared that her dying and the guilt will send me into a spiral.

I wish we could at least be LC instead, but it’s too complicated. I still love her and care about her so much. She’s not always a bad mom, she can actually be pretty amazing but it’s gotten to a point where the bad has outweighed the good. It’s too difficult and emotionally taxing to stay in any type of contact with her unfortunately.